Emotive

  This Is Why You Feel Stuck Photo by  Anthony Tran  on  Unsplash who is my savior? If I can’t be true or loyal to myself  who will be as loyal as I am to myself? I am living with my past achievement with the constant fear of the future. where is my present self? My present self is scared. My present self is so obsessed with my past self that it doesn’t allow me to do something according to now. it gets attached to the past and worries about the future. The middle most important aspect of life is the now. Where is it hidden? I want to discover it, but the future self haunts me, and the past self is so protective that it is bound by its own reach. The past self is holding me for my future self. Am I waiting for some superhero to come into my life and take my hand to a better future? Is there anything like that? If it is there then why can’t I find it? why my presence is in dilemma. So what self is to trust that will help me to start my journey? This feeling of st...

  What Is The Use Of Love If You Don’t Respect Me Photo by cottonbro studio:  https://www.pexels.com/photo/woman-suffering-from-stress-and-trauma-6603347/ I am talking about this love, not in the reference to just love between a partner but love that bound us. Love like; parental love, friendship love, relational love and any love that we know is there but still haunts us. You know my near loved one made me cry with their word sometime back. As time passes by I forgive him naturally. I feel like he is feeling guilty about what he said to me that made me cry. So it is my love for that person that makes me normal with him as time passes by. But, Today during an argument he told me ‘Did you forget what I say to you that day?’ Do you want me to remind you of that? I feel like my feet are broken, I just fell on the floor feeling like my entire body energy was sucked by some unknown spirit and I feel so hot suddenly. I am sweating in the very cold winter season. I feel like a fool a...

  Who Will Answer These Question For Me Photo by  Avi Richards  on  Unsplash My dreams, my role, and my achievement, Who can describe who am I? What is my role in someone’s life, what is my position in someone’s life? Who am I to say why you should like me or love me? Why should I say when you want me to say can’t I just stay quiet? Why should I give you pleasure when you want? why should I get married when you say? why should I stay within my limit can’t I be limitless? How can my skirt length and the neckline is judging me when you are completely naked with only shorts on? society wants me to be an obedient girl and a well-behaved bride when my man is drunk outside on the sidewalk. When my voice rises you say my character is down or I am arrogant but when he talks angrily you say he is a macho man. For me to be a good girl you want me to be low profile but then you say she is so weirdo and dumb girl. Who am I to you when I can’t be me? Why do I need to care so much...

  I I Am Nice But I Don’t Want That Now Photo by  Leyli Nova  on  Unsplash The image of me being nice to everyone is so popular. oh, I don’t know, what I have done to people around me who think that I am a nice girl. I am not only a nice girl. I am sometimes stupid, sometimes I am lazy, sometimes I am an unhygienic girl, sometimes I was so lazy, sometimes I was just out of the situation, sometimes I am just so crazy, sometimes I am so mad at everything, sometimes I just hate everyone. I am so much more than just a nice girl. But the problem is having a nice girl image makes me conscious of everything. I am losing my other self to be portrayed as a nice girl which people have made me do. I say yes to the things I don’t like to do just to please people. Nowadays I get irritated at everyone but still, I am maintaining my nice girl image. Because of this now I am avoiding people. I don’t want to meet the people I know. I just feel so fake talking to those people because ...

suddenly how can you say you stop loving me? Photo by Christian Lue on  Unsplash I remember the way you stare at me. when I confessed my feeling I remember you smiling and looking nervous. we have spent our best and worst times together .how can you make me believe you have to stop loving me? For me, you are the only one who shines in the crowd. you are the only one I am searching for in the crowd. I have seen you looking for me as well. I thought I know you love me but …. what change do you think happen to me that you are feeling this way? did I do something wrong with you? I know I always want you to say to me whatever is in your heart but I never thought you opening your heart will crush my heart. we two have confessed to being together till the end so what changed now? Am I the only one that is making the future with us in my head? when you are trying to say let’s end our thing. I never know why it is easy for you to say it is not working out. is feeling doesn’t...

  Let’s find out if you are unique… Photo by Eric Torres:  pexels. Hello, are you ready to ride this journey with me? If so let’s start. This is an experiment where I am going to tell you about my personality and I want you to match with me. I will tell you what kind of a person I think I am. So basically, I am a girl with introverted nature. I love to sit at my home and watch some romantic comedy and eat. My favorite dish is chicken roast, I love it. Eating is my guilty pleasure because I always thought of dieting after eating a whole meal. I want to be independent, but currently, I am not. I love my family, but I have never told them I love them. I think I have a soft corner for people in need. If you are in need, believe me, I will help you even if I only just started to know you. I don’t do so much gossip, but I just get enrolled in talk somehow. Gossiping about people is when you don’t know how you just get into it without even realizing it. I sometimes judge people ...