how to stop being nice

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I I Am Nice But I Don’t Want That Now

Photo by Leyli Nova on Unsplash

The image of me being nice to everyone is so popular. oh, I don’t know, what I have done to people around me who think that I am a nice girl. I am not only a nice girl.

I am sometimes stupid, sometimes I am lazy, sometimes I am an unhygienic girl, sometimes I was so lazy, sometimes I was just out of the situation, sometimes I am just so crazy, sometimes I am so mad at everything, sometimes I just hate everyone. I am so much more than just a nice girl.

But the problem is having a nice girl image makes me conscious of everything. I am losing my other self to be portrayed as a nice girl which people have made me do. I say yes to the things I don’t like to do just to please people.

Nowadays I get irritated at everyone but still, I am maintaining my nice girl image. Because of this now I am avoiding people. I don’t want to meet the people I know. I just feel so fake talking to those people because I know this is not me. But the thing is that now whatever I do I can’t be me to them.

Now meeting new people seems interesting. but the pattern also repeats.

I am unconsciously making people think I am so nice. I just want to say it out loud don’t say that I am nice because I am not. I want to be selfish sometimes but people continuously repeat you are a nice girl so behave like it. If I try to do something out of my nice girl picture people will try to make me realize that is not me. if that is not me then who is she?

You think you are image-conscious but people will try to make you the way they can be benefited from you. so stop behaving just like a nice girl. behave, considerate girl. This can be ok for you and your mind.


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