This is why you feel stuck

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This Is Why You Feel Stuck

Photo by Anthony Tran on Unsplash

who is my savior? If I can’t be true or loyal to myself who will be as loyal as I am to myself? I am living with my past achievement with the constant fear of the future. where is my present self?

My present self is scared. My present self is so obsessed with my past self that it doesn’t allow me to do something according to now. it gets attached to the past and worries about the future.

The middle most important aspect of life is the now. Where is it hidden? I want to discover it, but the future self haunts me, and the past self is so protective that it is bound by its own reach. The past self is holding me for my future self. Am I waiting for some superhero to come into my life and take my hand to a better future? Is there anything like that? If it is there then why can’t I find it? why my presence is in dilemma.

So what self is to trust that will help me to start my journey? This feeling of stuckness is so overwhelming.

How to break the cycle of stuckness then I ask myself if I have waited enough. My eyes are dried by waiting for some superhero. Why he is not coming to me to solve all the misery? I get frustrated in waiting. I get angry at him. I became anxious. I drained myself mentally.

So, I decided to end this suffering by myself. But how to do so?

I DECIDED TO END MY LIFE.

yes,

because I am tired but then what about my future self? My future self is waiting for me. I am my past, present, and future. I am on the driver’s sit of my life. Why the hell am I waiting for the unknown to come as an angel?

I decided to stop waiting and start my journey. So what if I fall on this journey? I will be back firmly at my own feet. I don’t need to drain myself by waiting. I start my engine and search for my possibilities. I start to talk with myself. I start to talk to my close one. I start to walk slowly then slowly my speed rise. I start to run now. I know the start is so lonely but slowly people will come to you and you start to feel alive again. Now you have you to trust the most.

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