Emotive

  How Motivational Talk Is Making Your Life Miserable Photo by  Reimond de Zuñiga  on  Unsplash Oh my god !! This is a motivational talk. This man is awesome. He talks good stuff. Look at that woman. She is the definition of beauty with a brain. She talks logic. She is just awesome. Badass women. I am gonna follow in her step. I will I guess. Then I start to watch that human logic all day and then the next day and the following day. I am now pumped up and my blood rises to do something then what do I do, just guess. Please talk silently. I am still watching the motivational talks. yeah, right I am still watching it. I feel like I have done very good things by watching and reading motivational things. What about my action? What have I achieved by doing it? I have lost most of my time just watching that talk. All the talk advises us to do it but what we do, no stop. What most of us do. We listen and we listen then we stop. We give ourselves pity or feel we have already...

  This Is Why You Feel Stuck Photo by  Anthony Tran  on  Unsplash who is my savior? If I can’t be true or loyal to myself  who will be as loyal as I am to myself? I am living with my past achievement with the constant fear of the future. where is my present self? My present self is scared. My present self is so obsessed with my past self that it doesn’t allow me to do something according to now. it gets attached to the past and worries about the future. The middle most important aspect of life is the now. Where is it hidden? I want to discover it, but the future self haunts me, and the past self is so protective that it is bound by its own reach. The past self is holding me for my future self. Am I waiting for some superhero to come into my life and take my hand to a better future? Is there anything like that? If it is there then why can’t I find it? why my presence is in dilemma. So what self is to trust that will help me to start my journey? This feeling of st...

  What Is The Use Of Love If You Don’t Respect Me Photo by cottonbro studio:  https://www.pexels.com/photo/woman-suffering-from-stress-and-trauma-6603347/ I am talking about this love, not in the reference to just love between a partner but love that bound us. Love like; parental love, friendship love, relational love and any love that we know is there but still haunts us. You know my near loved one made me cry with their word sometime back. As time passes by I forgive him naturally. I feel like he is feeling guilty about what he said to me that made me cry. So it is my love for that person that makes me normal with him as time passes by. But, Today during an argument he told me ‘Did you forget what I say to you that day?’ Do you want me to remind you of that? I feel like my feet are broken, I just fell on the floor feeling like my entire body energy was sucked by some unknown spirit and I feel so hot suddenly. I am sweating in the very cold winter season. I feel like a fool a...

  Who Will Answer These Question For Me Photo by  Avi Richards  on  Unsplash My dreams, my role, and my achievement, Who can describe who am I? What is my role in someone’s life, what is my position in someone’s life? Who am I to say why you should like me or love me? Why should I say when you want me to say can’t I just stay quiet? Why should I give you pleasure when you want? why should I get married when you say? why should I stay within my limit can’t I be limitless? How can my skirt length and the neckline is judging me when you are completely naked with only shorts on? society wants me to be an obedient girl and a well-behaved bride when my man is drunk outside on the sidewalk. When my voice rises you say my character is down or I am arrogant but when he talks angrily you say he is a macho man. For me to be a good girl you want me to be low profile but then you say she is so weirdo and dumb girl. Who am I to you when I can’t be me? Why do I need to care so much...

  I I Am Nice But I Don’t Want That Now Photo by  Leyli Nova  on  Unsplash The image of me being nice to everyone is so popular. oh, I don’t know, what I have done to people around me who think that I am a nice girl. I am not only a nice girl. I am sometimes stupid, sometimes I am lazy, sometimes I am an unhygienic girl, sometimes I was so lazy, sometimes I was just out of the situation, sometimes I am just so crazy, sometimes I am so mad at everything, sometimes I just hate everyone. I am so much more than just a nice girl. But the problem is having a nice girl image makes me conscious of everything. I am losing my other self to be portrayed as a nice girl which people have made me do. I say yes to the things I don’t like to do just to please people. Nowadays I get irritated at everyone but still, I am maintaining my nice girl image. Because of this now I am avoiding people. I don’t want to meet the people I know. I just feel so fake talking to those people because ...

suddenly how can you say you stop loving me? Photo by Christian Lue on  Unsplash I remember the way you stare at me. when I confessed my feeling I remember you smiling and looking nervous. we have spent our best and worst times together .how can you make me believe you have to stop loving me? For me, you are the only one who shines in the crowd. you are the only one I am searching for in the crowd. I have seen you looking for me as well. I thought I know you love me but …. what change do you think happen to me that you are feeling this way? did I do something wrong with you? I know I always want you to say to me whatever is in your heart but I never thought you opening your heart will crush my heart. we two have confessed to being together till the end so what changed now? Am I the only one that is making the future with us in my head? when you are trying to say let’s end our thing. I never know why it is easy for you to say it is not working out. is feeling doesn’t...

  Let’s find out if you are unique… Photo by Eric Torres:  pexels. Hello, are you ready to ride this journey with me? If so let’s start. This is an experiment where I am going to tell you about my personality and I want you to match with me. I will tell you what kind of a person I think I am. So basically, I am a girl with introverted nature. I love to sit at my home and watch some romantic comedy and eat. My favorite dish is chicken roast, I love it. Eating is my guilty pleasure because I always thought of dieting after eating a whole meal. I want to be independent, but currently, I am not. I love my family, but I have never told them I love them. I think I have a soft corner for people in need. If you are in need, believe me, I will help you even if I only just started to know you. I don’t do so much gossip, but I just get enrolled in talk somehow. Gossiping about people is when you don’t know how you just get into it without even realizing it. I sometimes judge people ...

  LONG DISTANCE LOVE pexels.com I am going far away from you ….every second you promised to hold me till the end we are falling apart in the time but I hope things will be fine I live so far away from you that’s why Maybe our love is not right We are making our love suffer so much Is it still ok to call me and you, us? I know we promised to be with each other till the end Can we pass through this long distance? Sometimes I feel like giving up everything and coming to you Be with you hold you tight never let you go out of my sight I wanna be with you every second How it could be possible in our long distance I feel like my heart is burning in the fire Having you next to me is only my desire But this human world needs some sacrifices to make This huge sacrifice called responsibility to take Thinking ahead to a future so beautiful to make Remember honey this is our love it is not fake We will make just wait for me for some time I promise to come surely next time for a full l...

  Love cycle I have lost faith in love You want me in love I want to be with me only You make me be with you only I just want to walk alone You make me run for you I am afraid to come close You sit next to me only I don’t want to cry with you I found your shoulders only May be someday you leave me Till then I want to be with you only. ( When your heart broke remember time will heel your pain. You will find your next destination which can be more beautiful and peaceful) I have lost faith in love You want me in love I want to be with me only You make me be with you only I just want to walk alone You make me run for you I am afraid to come close You sit next to me only I don’t want to cry with you I found your shoulders only May be someday you leave me Till then I want to be with you only. ( When your heart broke remember time will heel your pain. You will find your next destination which can be more beautiful and peaceful)

  MY FRIENDS ARE HOLDING ME TO LOVE ANYONE Photo by RODNAE Productions: https://www.pexels.com/photo/person-comforting-the-crying-woman-6669937/ Here I am talking about romantic love. The dreamy love that I always want to have. My friends have found someone that they can say they are in love with. Well, they have found very soon I guess or I am late to find someone I don’t know. In the beginning, they are such a lovey-dovey couple but now their relationship has such a u-turn. They always fought for such stupid reasons. I sometimes get jealous because according to me they are lucky to find someone they can love for life. But now I realize love is just not everything in relation. I have seen my friend’s breakdown and how frustrated they are in their relationship but are continuing it and making effort to long lasted it. I have never been in a relationship but seeing my friend’s frustration makes me worried about my capacity to love anyone in this life. I always thought loving so...

  How does it feel to have a crush on somebody? Photo by Pragyan Bezbaruah: https://www.pexels.com/photo/woman-covering-her-face-2029235/ This is a surreal feeling. How to describe it? ummmm…… I am a girl so I will address my crush as him. The feeling of wanting to look at his face but finding it so hard to even look at him directly. Going to a place where you know you will get a chance to look at him. wanting to know what is his favorite things. for example; What is his favorite color? What does he love to eat? what is his favorite actor? what is his favorite dish? who is his best friend? Does he have a girlfriend? Does he know I like him? And many more question pop into my head. when you have a crush you want to look for similarities between you two and if you don’t find many more similarities then you started to make similarities in silly things. Like, oh!! He and I use the same brand of pen. He also doesn’t know the answer to these questions, me to...

  The main reason you want to live your life Photo by Sebastian Voortman: https://www.pexels.com/photo/woman-jumping-wearing-green-backpack-214574/ This question I often ask myself. Roshna what is the purpose of your life .why god has sent you here? what you will give to this world. who are you? I am always bothered by all these questions. The thing is I don’t know, yes I still don’t know why I am here. I am just here. I am present. I am living without solving all these questions. This question makes me depressed sometimes. Sometimes I don’t care about all this and go with the flow. I am still searching by trying. Right now I am writing but is it my passion? well, I don’t know. I just feel like writing sometimes so I write. Do I know myself that well? I am trying to know myself. I am trying to spend some time with myself. At some times I feel like yes this is what I will do the rest of my life but then I get bored by it and I just cancel that thing in the middle. So how c...

  The courage you need to make a difference Photo by seyfi durmaz: https://www.pexels.com/photo/people-hiking-on-snow-covered-mountain-5311543/ the ability to do things on the verge of giving up is courage. the question here is what are the things which give me the courage to do work? well, let me think how many times in my life I did things with courage umm not so many. yes, not so many things required courage to do. But some things which are frightening but needed action to take require courage to do that work. the feeling of being courageous is a relieving feeling. the stronger your willpower the strong courage you will have to face the challenge in your life. There is a thing you need to do right now but you are so afraid that you might not be able to do it right but it is an important task. the fear inside you is saying stop don’t do it, it is dangerous you might get failed or you might lose or you will become a laughing character. it all makes you worried and stops you from t...

  The thought of a mirror Photo by Михаил Секацкий on  Unsplash Hey, are you feeling sad why? Did something happen and you are feeling guilty about it? It’s ok I am here with you always. Relax now .take a deep breath. Breath in ………and breath out. everything will be fine. But you have to try. Make move .find something that will help you. Don’t just wait for a miracle or luck to approach you. Stand up and do your thing. I know you can if you put your mind to it. Stop stop stop uhhhhhh. I have told you don’t overthink what will happen. do some work instead. just believe in your work. make yourself worthy of something you wish for. follow what feels right for you and skip the old trend. just give yourself time and space for the stupid situation you make in your head. Believe me, the situation you make in your head is an imagination and you are afraid of imagination and not reality. Reality is different. imagination is prediction and no one knows what will happ...

  MY overwhelmed emotion Photo by Fa Barboza on  Unsplash I always plan in my head. I will always do this and that in that kind of situation. But I can’t act out the same in any kind of situation. Yesterday one lady is arguing with my mom. They two are both arguing with each other but the words another lady is using are so bad. I feel so angry about it but I can’t say a word in front of them. I feel so embarrassed because I can’t be any help to my mom. My heart started to pound with anger when she is using bad words for my mom. After some time I have so many words to say to that lady but it is too late now. I just can’t fight with people and that is my problem. When anybody started to talk badly I feel angry towards them but replying to them with anger is not possible for me. I will start to cry if that kind of situation arises. I just start to shiver which I hate about myself. I know how to differentiate between right and wrong. But conveying the message to the rude one is j...

  I think life is about the moment. the moment that doesn’t come all the time but when it comes you fall in love with that moment. Photo by Nathan Dumlao on  Unsplash almost for most people, so many days are the same. so we don’t put a lot of thought into that same moment kind of day. but some days are different. where we feel alive and different .which we put in our head and it makes our heart beat a little fast. whether it is for a day or an hour or hours or a minute or a second. I remember my first crush moments which make me feel good when I think about that. my first night out with my friend which is a great time for me. we are scared of putting in a lot of hard work to do some job but the hard work you put in will give you the moment you thrive for. but ignoring the hard work and just living your life right now will give you nothing but sadness. I have heard somewhere that there is no substitute for hard work. I am also scared of doing a lot of work that will ...