Emotive

suddenly how can you say you stop loving me? Photo by Christian Lue on  Unsplash I remember the way you stare at me. when I confessed my feeling I remember you smiling and looking nervous. we have spent our best and worst times together .how can you make me believe you have to stop loving me? For me, you are the only one who shines in the crowd. you are the only one I am searching for in the crowd. I have seen you looking for me as well. I thought I know you love me but …. what change do you think happen to me that you are feeling this way? did I do something wrong with you? I know I always want you to say to me whatever is in your heart but I never thought you opening your heart will crush my heart. we two have confessed to being together till the end so what changed now? Am I the only one that is making the future with us in my head? when you are trying to say let’s end our thing. I never know why it is easy for you to say it is not working out. is feeling doesn’t...

  Let’s find out if you are unique… Photo by Eric Torres:  pexels. Hello, are you ready to ride this journey with me? If so let’s start. This is an experiment where I am going to tell you about my personality and I want you to match with me. I will tell you what kind of a person I think I am. So basically, I am a girl with introverted nature. I love to sit at my home and watch some romantic comedy and eat. My favorite dish is chicken roast, I love it. Eating is my guilty pleasure because I always thought of dieting after eating a whole meal. I want to be independent, but currently, I am not. I love my family, but I have never told them I love them. I think I have a soft corner for people in need. If you are in need, believe me, I will help you even if I only just started to know you. I don’t do so much gossip, but I just get enrolled in talk somehow. Gossiping about people is when you don’t know how you just get into it without even realizing it. I sometimes judge people ...

  LONG DISTANCE LOVE pexels.com I am going far away from you ….every second you promised to hold me till the end we are falling apart in the time but I hope things will be fine I live so far away from you that’s why Maybe our love is not right We are making our love suffer so much Is it still ok to call me and you, us? I know we promised to be with each other till the end Can we pass through this long distance? Sometimes I feel like giving up everything and coming to you Be with you hold you tight never let you go out of my sight I wanna be with you every second How it could be possible in our long distance I feel like my heart is burning in the fire Having you next to me is only my desire But this human world needs some sacrifices to make This huge sacrifice called responsibility to take Thinking ahead to a future so beautiful to make Remember honey this is our love it is not fake We will make just wait for me for some time I promise to come surely next time for a full l...

  Love cycle I have lost faith in love You want me in love I want to be with me only You make me be with you only I just want to walk alone You make me run for you I am afraid to come close You sit next to me only I don’t want to cry with you I found your shoulders only May be someday you leave me Till then I want to be with you only. ( When your heart broke remember time will heel your pain. You will find your next destination which can be more beautiful and peaceful) I have lost faith in love You want me in love I want to be with me only You make me be with you only I just want to walk alone You make me run for you I am afraid to come close You sit next to me only I don’t want to cry with you I found your shoulders only May be someday you leave me Till then I want to be with you only. ( When your heart broke remember time will heel your pain. You will find your next destination which can be more beautiful and peaceful)

  MY FRIENDS ARE HOLDING ME TO LOVE ANYONE Photo by RODNAE Productions: https://www.pexels.com/photo/person-comforting-the-crying-woman-6669937/ Here I am talking about romantic love. The dreamy love that I always want to have. My friends have found someone that they can say they are in love with. Well, they have found very soon I guess or I am late to find someone I don’t know. In the beginning, they are such a lovey-dovey couple but now their relationship has such a u-turn. They always fought for such stupid reasons. I sometimes get jealous because according to me they are lucky to find someone they can love for life. But now I realize love is just not everything in relation. I have seen my friend’s breakdown and how frustrated they are in their relationship but are continuing it and making effort to long lasted it. I have never been in a relationship but seeing my friend’s frustration makes me worried about my capacity to love anyone in this life. I always thought loving so...

  How does it feel to have a crush on somebody? Photo by Pragyan Bezbaruah: https://www.pexels.com/photo/woman-covering-her-face-2029235/ This is a surreal feeling. How to describe it? ummmm…… I am a girl so I will address my crush as him. The feeling of wanting to look at his face but finding it so hard to even look at him directly. Going to a place where you know you will get a chance to look at him. wanting to know what is his favorite things. for example; What is his favorite color? What does he love to eat? what is his favorite actor? what is his favorite dish? who is his best friend? Does he have a girlfriend? Does he know I like him? And many more question pop into my head. when you have a crush you want to look for similarities between you two and if you don’t find many more similarities then you started to make similarities in silly things. Like, oh!! He and I use the same brand of pen. He also doesn’t know the answer to these questions, me to...

  The main reason you want to live your life Photo by Sebastian Voortman: https://www.pexels.com/photo/woman-jumping-wearing-green-backpack-214574/ This question I often ask myself. Roshna what is the purpose of your life .why god has sent you here? what you will give to this world. who are you? I am always bothered by all these questions. The thing is I don’t know, yes I still don’t know why I am here. I am just here. I am present. I am living without solving all these questions. This question makes me depressed sometimes. Sometimes I don’t care about all this and go with the flow. I am still searching by trying. Right now I am writing but is it my passion? well, I don’t know. I just feel like writing sometimes so I write. Do I know myself that well? I am trying to know myself. I am trying to spend some time with myself. At some times I feel like yes this is what I will do the rest of my life but then I get bored by it and I just cancel that thing in the middle. So how c...